July 1, 2009

Shocked, disgusted, and Heartbroken About What Just Happened in California!!!

Our wonderful Govenor and State Senate could not agree on a budget by the midnight deadline. So Thursday, our state controller will begin issuing IOUs to college students who are expecting grants, welfare recipients, the blind and disabled, and private companies that contract with the state to provide a wide array of services.

Counties that administer social services also would not get paid, nor would taxpayers who are still expecting refunds.

Like many other families with disabled and Special Needs Children, this will be a horrific hit to my family.

What am I supposed to tell my children when they are hungry. Sorry, we had to pay our rent, so here is an IOU that you can eat.

What do I tell my children, when the gas and electric are turned off. Sorry that the heat makes you sick, tough it out. What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. We always have plenty of cold water now.

What am I supposed to do, when our caregiver can't come, when Daddy goes to work. Sorry children, I guess you will spend the summer indoors, watch as much TV as you want. I guess you'll be eating sandwiches and cereal for every meal. On my really bad days, daddy will have to stay home from work, and so we will probably loose our home.

What do I tell my children, when I can't afford their diapers and pull ups. Sorry kid's, hold it in.

What do I tell my children, when they need to go to their multiple monthly doctor's visits, sick appointments, therapies, and we do not have the gas to take them or that the doctor's won't see them, because they aren't guaranteed to be paid. Sorry, your health doesn't matter to the Governor or the State Senate.

What do I tell my children, when we can't afford their multiple medications. Sorry children, I am praying that you do not get sick.

I am so sorry, children. I am sorry that you inherited bad genes and have dissabilities. I am sorry that you have a disabled mom. I am sorry that daddy can't work full-time, because taking care of us is such a full-time job. I am sorry that our extended family is so dysfunctional, that they have never and would never help us out. I wanted so much more for you.

I will stay strong for you. You are everything to me. I just don't know what to do now, except to pray even more.

Please Lord send us a little help!!!!